Short Breather...

Finally got time for a short breather... Today is the first day since 10 August that i got the chance to be at home at 8 plus (Considered early)...

I don live in hall, and i sleep at home every day, but can u believe i haven seen my parents for 4 days? Since sunday, every night i only managed to get home earliest 1am and my parents had slept. When i woke up, they would already had gone out to work, and the cycle repeats... feel so bad...

Since last sunday when grandma passed away, was mostly at Teck Whye till thurs... Friday went back to school followed by campus concert urshering, Saturday was Cynosure Ball and stayed overnight at hotel till sunday before meeting for HJ and SJ birthday.

Monday was CAC Election Rally at night, Tuesday and Wednesday was Recruitment Drive and interview cum Global Bank talk.... REally, everyday was so packed until today's' election, finally i can say that there is time for a breather.... i hope to be able to catch up on the stuffs that i missed out this past weeks during the weekend....

I have been wanting to thank all my friends and cousins who were concerned about me since 外婆 passed away last sunday. This 2 weeks have been really too busy to think about it...

Had my tuition at night that sunday, and was eating dinner at the coffee shop at nine plus close to ten when my bro called. My dad ask us to go down to Teck Whye, and i knew it, the time has come... 外婆 is supposed to be at NUH and there can be no other reasons to go down to Teck Whye other than one...

Sped down in 10 mins, saw her for the last hour... she was struggling, in great pain, held our hands, i couldnt talked to her, my voice was lost, choked with tears... She groaned loudly and everyone of us could feel the pain.. we were just as equally in pain... The buddhist prayer was playing faintly in the background, and we all hope she can have a easy last few moments...

Its hard to control emotions even as a blog about this...

She shouted, thru the oxygen mask in Hokkien:" wah gia liao xiang zhao gou yi" ( i leave already who will take care of him) We wept and consoled her, we will take care of him, don worry, he also don want you to worry.... he is old enough to take care of himself already....

外婆 always scold him.. this is their way of communication for 50 years...

She told him:" wen lang ye gum qing... gia liao liao" (we have come to the end of the road of our relationship). Even though 外婆 was always scolding him, their love for each others were deep... 外公 always maintain silent as 外婆 did her scolding... this is their way of maintaining a relationship, accomodation for each other, understanding the temper of each others, that was how they lasted the past half-century...

Towards the end, she lost consciousness, and laid quietly in the arms of my uncle... slowly her breathing gets softer and softer... the rise and fall of her chest gets lesser and lesser.. and she left...

Every single one of us were shaken, but we pulled together, did all the arrangements required and make sure she can leave with peace in her mind...

The 4 days that followed must have been what she wanted to see.... Our whole family came together, worked hand in hand... i talked to a cousin i haven seen in 2 years... We always played together when we were young, but we grew apart as each of us became busy... we talked and helped each others out, knew more about each other's life now...

in the 4 days, i talked to one of my uncle more than wad i talked to him about for the past 10 years... I believe this is what 外婆 wanted to see, and i believe 冥冥中 she was with us all along to bring the family together.... she has a sharp mind, she could remember every single one of our names and what we were doing even though we don't always meet... its only her body that failed her....

During that 4 days, the person who felt worst could be none other than 外公.. he has a very tanned complexion... but i could see his swollen eyes, the redness in the eyelid despite it being tanned... his tears fell quietly, how is he to accept having to live without his partner... i realli hope i can do more for 外公... i shall try as much as possible to make time to go Teck Whye if i can...

Hope 外婆 will be able to bless 外公 and everyone of us....

This blog shall be dedicated to my dearest 外婆。。。

Mj and Coffee

Well had one of my worse loss in MJ yesterday with kx, eileen and notoriously good at "diao zhin" queen Shan Yi...

Loss 1.5 times my chips... had $30 worth at the begining and i lost $45... All these attributed to me always "开枪"... i think 75% of the times its either they zi mo or i "开枪"...

Well i think at least this loss will curb my craving for mJ for the next 13 weeks ba, haa, the real busy school term has just started plus CAC committments its all going to be super crazy plus i got two tuition groups to handle plus projects.. hmm... feel sad cos i lost the extra income that i got from selling my compiled notes haa.. well just treat it as i gave away my compiled notes for free then...

Oh next topic of my post this time is about Coffee and Tea... Why i love coffee and tea so much..many of my friends say that i'm like an old man haa always drinking this two drinks even in hot weather.. well i actually have my own explanation for it...

Reason 1
They contain caffaine which perks me up and make me feel alert. it also makes my heart pump slightly faster and blood flow faster which is a good feeling haa

Reason 2
I cant take cold drinks... There is no medical history behind this reason, but i knew it within my body myself. Each time i drink cold drinks or cold desert, especially after eating a hot meal, i feel bad within my stomach and i will feel v lethargic... Worse, my usual symptons may appear...

Usual symptons
Sneezing all the way, causing tired eyes, and very bad feeling....

To add on to my reason 2, i feel that my body "qi" is not enough.. sounds very Chinese Medicine?? haa but its real. My body cannot produce enough warmth enough, i knew it myself cos i always have cold hands and legs, and i cant stand being in aircon environment for too long. and when that happens, i start to sneeze. its also the same when i stay up late at night, and have not enough sleep, i feel my body cant regulate enough energy...

That also explains why i like to do gardening sometimes, cos i feel good under the sun haa i like the warmth and i like to sweat, makes me feel better...

All in all, i think i'm a little 体弱多病 kinda hahahha.... although i don fall sick and have fever those kinda, but i just cant tahan too extreme stuffs ba... so must learn to take care of my self better now hahaha

Me and my foul mouth cum temper...

I know i'm not one who has a very nice temper (those who work with me will know) contrary to what many who just get to know me perceive me as... many think i have the Mr Nice guy look, well its all in the appearance only, and it depends on how close you are to me...

Basically i'm an introvert, therefore i don express what i feel deep down inside me unless I know the person well enough, and sometimes is because i cant be bothered to express my opinion or critique since it's not something that affects me and i shouldnt be a kaypoh.

however if the issue is something that i care about and concerns me or my friends, normally i cant hold my tongue back. Just like my father (trying to link my temper to some hereditary genes haha - Excuses), i am one who will just shoot if i don like somethings or if i feel things are not being done up to my expectations... Well people may say I have very poor EQ, no denying that from my side, but its just me... i think i will offend tonnes of people with my temper and its not easy to work with me...

But funnily, during my PA attachment, there wasnt many things that affect my temper even though i see many things that i think can be improved on... perhaps it was due to my position at that time, i was just an intern and wasnt in an authoratative position... I guess its because i'm a perfectionist ba, i wouldnt allow my work to be sub standard especially if its within my control...

i really hope i can improve on my temper bit by bit, otherwise i really will get those related illness or disease soon haa e.g. hypertension... Seriously i think my partner needs to be one who has very good temper or EQ to help curb mine...

Genting!

OoO Back from Genting!! it was a fun trip and definitely worth the money... for just $97 bucks we got a 3D2N stay at first world Hotel plus a to and fro bus coach haa....

First day was good! cos we got a good deal.. we booked for a VIP coach but got an even better one! One that can watch movies, play games and is definitely comfortable! ha

So here are the things we did over the 3 days!

Bowling

Watch Dark Knight

CASINO!

Watch HELLBOY

MAKAN

Walk walk

Play Boardgames!!!

Overall it was a relax trip haa... we did things at our own pace, sleep till we are full... took naps, played, gambled, and watch 2 movies! haa cos it was really quite cheap over there and there wasnt alot for us to do....

Jun An wanted to go have his palm read at Genting... but didnt in the end haa, it would surely have been quite interesting to know what the fortune teller would say...

Anyway here are the accounts:

ALL of us lost except JunAN who won at least 300 Ringgit haha

WeiZheng lost the least at 85 Ringgit and me 100 Ringgit...

Kx and SJ slightly more...

and after this experience we have identified KX as a potential future gambling addict! haha, anyway it was really fun la at the casino, though it would have been even better if we had all won!

KX already plans to have a yearly trip to Genting hahaha.....